27.4.08

the way u gotta do it! [8 steps to find that special someone]


[Dे void]


Found my angel, my muse, my blue ladybug...
(I know it seems crazy, but I know what I'm talking about, alright?)

I didn't used to believe in this, now look at me!, my whole world it's spinning forward into a future with her. I'm even writing tips for lonelers, just like me!, no, just like I used to be...

Don't u ever stop, searching for your special someone, there's so many great people out there, than... you don't wanna know cause it would probably cause you'll get some sort of neurological malfunction provoked by over-stimulation of neurones, and brain tissue...

Seriously, I've find my special someone, she seems so close, yet so far... we're miles apart from each other, chat it's what holds our relationship, I'll say 'stick ur asses into chatrooms and go on for days, until u find someone!' but that just worked for me, you should just go out there, talk to people, be nice, be yourselves, do NOT pretend to be anything but you.

She supports me to get a girl, to meet a girl that ain't so far away, I think she should have fun with other guys as well, if it cant be me... then someone else should do it. What I'm trying to say, is that this is painful in a away, I cant kiss her, hold her, touch her, smell her... that's why we keep our relationship open, until we finally meet. We've already got to the point of a thousand 'I love you', cause there ain't so much to say... we know almost everything about each other, we find it hard to say things than other one does not know. Mostly we get light headed, and we say stupid things, no, silly things.

Oh, and one thing I forgot to tell you, this might sound crazy cause of the distance and all that, but... we think we're our twin flames.. we made lots of proofs, I guarantee you, we think the same things, we even feel each other sometimes, we've got this amazing bond... it's like a tight brain 2 brain connection, harder than any cosmic ray, harder than gamma. It's amazing, we already feel like lovers, we've meet in a couple of months, I think, maybe less, and we're already...

What I'm trying to say is... 'look how lucky I get!', and this joyful kid, could be you, if you just get your butt up and start doing something, do you wanna be single for the rest of your life? then the time is now, my little friend, talk, or at least try to, to everyone you think it could be good for you... or anybody than has the same sex you wanna get as a partner, you never know, that girl standing in the bus could be your special someone, that dude that's eating at the café... that bi who's... not doing anything but waiting! chances are unlimited, black, white, pink, brunette, blond, red head, green head... that could be it, what you've always waited for, now stop waiting, and get into the game, you wont win anything if you don't risk AT ALL!.

Once u meet her, there's no turning back, your glued to her/he/she-he, for real, you cannot get away, cause that's already a part of you, you wouldn't be yourself if you didn't find that someone... am I right?

After that, if things didn't work out, and you are both still alive, destiny will tell if that was the one, (ka, for those who read The Dark Tower) meanwhile all you can do is get back into the game, and look for someone to heal those wounds, don't stay alone in your home getting fat, just get out there, there's probably a few lots thinking about you right now... all you've got to do is get into the game... just like I did, just like everybody should. A few more tips for behavior...

1.
Honesty and Trust, if you are to meet someone, you gotta quit hiding, blame that someone too if it ain't telling you all of it, you guys are bonding, you shouldn't keep anything to yourselves, that same thing you're holding back could be the key into his/her/he-she heart.

2.
Be yourself, no matter who you are, or if it seems like you are not in tune with that someone, there will be other things to bond with, you just gotta be patient, and stop saying, 'so do I', if you don't mean it.

2.5.
LISTEN! If you can hear, and understand everything she/he/he-she says chances are than that someone will feel understood, ergo... some bonding, and that some one will have a better view of yourself. There's a lot of persons in this world, they all have their issues, every once in a while a couple of ears gotta show up to do the job.

3.
Be nice!, picture yourself having a relationship with that someone, a real one, with all tha good stuff, and figure how would you be with her, how would you feel with her... if you do this step right, your half way in, my friend.


4.
Take care. no one likes fat, ugly, messy, untied, smelly, odd, and twisted fellas, tv it's telling everyone you should hunt hotties, if you want yourself to relate to love, and kisses, you gotta take care of your self the best way you can.


5.
Don't hold back!, if your gonna be with someone, you shouldn't prepare your lines, you've got to just say what ever it comes up in your mind, if your quick enough that someone will understand you, and maybe even open up as well, it's a tiny risk, but it can speed up a lot of 'what do u like?', than you 2 certainly would learn along the way.


6.
Be Smooth, some people doesn't like it, so you might wanna know the reaction you get, but body language are one of the best tools to communicate your feelings or your wills to do something, if you want to feel that silky skin, just do so, make it slow, though.
You would regret it if you don't touch it, so what's the point?, and maybe that someone likes it too, then my friend... you've got some chem going on.

7.
(I didn't meant for this to be this long, but...) Facial expressions. Everyone wonders why you are so happy when you show your entire teeth on a big wide smile, well, if you really feel happy you should let them know while smiling, tell that someone sweet things, maybe a silly joke, make faces, and have fun with it, that someone might like it... and well... that someone would be looking straight at you for a long while, cause that someone likes you.


8.
Kisses, sex, and groping... seems like I got your attention =). I know everybody likes sex and everything, but this might be a little hard on you, but, STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!, it will come around when it does... you don't have to push it, if that someone it's into you, there will be no other way than it's gonna happen, mean while, you keep doing everything else.


Ok, Ima stop here, of course than there are a lot more things to work on, but I'll let you figure them out your self, I don't want you to waste your life reading tips.

God bless you, and if u don't believe in that... good luck!
Almost forgot... 'practice makes perfect'
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'There's Only Me' - Rob Dougan
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Angel, u know I love you....
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yeah, u can comment.

12.4.08

Glued

[The path]
So...
that's the way the cookie crumbles
is there a path in this life or we are doomed to trace some preconcived "randomness", why tha hell do we live for?...
there's a special someone in my life, a blue ladybug, I cant get her out of my head, Im not sure if I should belive in the dreams, or this "reality", dreams seem more real to me, most of the times.
Dreams in wich I see her, dreams where our virtual world it's real, as our feelings are.
If it wore up to me I'll fly across the world to find her, and just... see her, if only for a second... only then I can die happy, knowing than I've see her, and she saw me.
I've finded my twin, I know it's weird to say it, and than it's hard to know for sure, but we've got this weird conection, than it's hard to overlook... plus the feelings I get when I'm talkin to her, or thinkin about her... it's a bomb that's breaking my shell, making me open to everything, I cannot hide anymore, not to her.
I want her to acept me as I am, without really knowin what am I... but I mean... someone than let some things go, so than other things can be bonded...
On one side there's names and words in a screen, bits, scratches in a hard-drive, on the other side, there's a relationship, someone than cares about me, someone than understands me, someone than likes me... isnt that worth fighting for? isnt that worth dyin for?
I think I'm really falling for her, so far I've been picking the oniric side... let's see where the rabbit hole goes...
this might seem stupid to some, or u just cannot belive in all this shit... maybe all u need it's to crack open your head a little... I mean, what CANT appen now days?, just look around and u'll see, how many oddityes hide in your own lack of perseption... u dont see, cuz u dont want to see...
Maybe u've never been, where I am, right now, just bleeding to get another 2 seconds of chat, and then at all be worth it...
That's the reason why I get up, that's the bloody reason why I say "You cannot see what's going on!", that's why I chose the dream world, even knowing than I'm not in there the whole time, but the time than I am... Im glued to the keybord...
We are twins, and she knows it, we are almost the same, u might thing that will get booring later on... just like married couples who just know everything about each other... like "there's nothing new, anymore"
but, let me tell you one thing, ladybug : "Everything about you it's new"[Massive Attack], we share everything, and we care a lot about what we said, just like it was written in gold handwrite, detailed lights than filter the brightness in our hearts...
and I dont expect people to comment to this, or brag about it, about the fact than I've got someone who gives a crap about me!
Im doing this becouse... this creppy kid how's typing this... could be you, think about it, did u ever had a dream?, did u ever belived in something?, do u have a bloody SOUL!??
why do u live?
love, I love you!
this could be you, and you know it, I've got no idea who's behind that keyboard, but I know, who ever that is, than I trust her, and then I need to trust in something, in someone, otherwise, im just like this fckin machine.
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["I've got a reason, I've got a reason, I've got a reason and I wont let go!"]'reason'-Limp Bizkit... of the trust or truth album I think...Idk...
['I could fake it, but I still want more']'dissolved girl'-Massive Attack[to thouse who havent find that someone]['I need a little love to ease the pain'].
Risingson-Massive Attack[for thouse who are worried about ur own soul status, this says a lot!].
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"I think than the secret of life consists simply to acept it as it is"-Saint John of the Cross.
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"The reason of life it's to live it"-JTB.
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"truly
I don't need money
or strangers to love me
no diamonds and pearls
or fast cars
designed for the rock stars

I could be happy
with someone to trust
someone to love
someone to trust"

Use Me - Garbage
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this had been edited 5 times... I think...no, 6.7.. screw it, noone's goin to comment anyway...so shut ur fckin mouth, kid!

8.4.08

A long time since last time...


I thought about this a few seconds ago...
It might be good, it may not, but there's one little thing I do know... this aint gonna be like it was before, cuz there was something wrong with me, hopefully I've fixed it, who knows now days, right?

Anyway to make the story short, I've not give up this shit, as I will not give up my front teeth if u ask me so... [yes, of course I've got them]... I'm going to start to write more often, while I'm on math classes, or when Im so stupid I cannot program in Pascal [I know, but it happens].

Im glad to say than there have been a few...[lots of] things that I've progressed at, so I've decided to make a short list of the most important ones:

.1 Brushin my tooth [Upgraded 58%] .2 Nukin tha food [Upgraded 23%][the glasses on item 45, helped quite a lot] .3 Rubing paper with a WHITE eraser [Upgraded 89%][with a bonus from the WHITE(EraserFactory), for explaing the reasons of the bonus, and typin the name of their factory in capital letters twice, in this same blog u are reading] 4.[And NOT last!] wiping my nose with softy and disposable tissue papers[Upgraded 666%][After a 2 week cold]

I know this seems too much for you to keep up with, but let me tell u just one thing, young fella, u can be just like ME!

[if you wore born in china, your parents wore called Ling, and everybody keeps calling you 5k3773r, even knowing your name it's Lala, drugs dont make any effect on you cuz u ate lots of crunchy cookies without sanity, the label on your shirt always say '19', and you wear pink sux]

There might be a problem in your sinapsis team if you dont read this joined by an adult who loves Massive Attack[not the band, the WWx^2]
So dont go stupid and asking questions about your relatives and why are YOU not gettin any sex, life's most beautiful things arent on sale[not until tomorrow, cuz that's when I'm gonna buy my wii#54/2(27)]
Pray to god, who ever that might be, and dont tell people you are a sissy, you are not going to get a bf that easy, and PLEASE, stop waisting your time on this, this is tupid, I mean stupi, *57up1D... log#4561238912389123@€¬%"˃▼

Sources:

deviantwalls/
imagestok/
http://gmail.hack.it.com/

and kidz...Dont do drugs![if you dont know what that is, ask your brother, and if he acts like he doesnt knows call him a sissy and run!]

18.5.07

Latest Proyekts

Hi, as been a long time since last time....
I'm doin my own website, developin on Dreamweaver, Photoshop, and FLStudio, on the audio.
I wanna start writin something 2, but I'm just lay-z, and I need some big time inspiration, like a crush or something new, fresh and powerfull than drives me in that path again...
Eader way things come out cool on the Abstrakt backgrounds I do 4 deviant (http://jhonthebest.deviantart.com) and the musik (I'll upload it on the comin website) I do on the FL Studio, this is the soft who has the best generators 4 MIDI files, so that's why...
Anyway, send me luck on all these proyekts, I'll need it...

3.1.07

CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK 2 DO?

I really dont know what to do in the whole fuckin summer. The Heat drives me nuts, N Im pretty much all day laying in my bed, stearing at the roof. Besides fooling around with the Pc there is nothing left of my fuckin life in the whole day. Im so boored n sad.
It's like we're allways from one edge to another. From kiskin my ass at scholl, been worried about tests than I havent studied for; to have the all summer to do what ever you want, but they take away your will to do anything, so it fucks you up!.
Shit Im thinkin about writtin a book. But I don't know....
Send Me Luck!!!

7.12.06

"Beauty is in the eyes of the Beholder" -JTB

This is a picture of my eye...

Here it's twisted a little...


a little more...


another aproach...




N this is the final one...
Love to use Corel Photoshop n Love Eyes...


6.12.06

My Adiction

This is the way than I admit my adiction, If there is anybody else than feels that way...I love taking pictures of my big d...
Ah, Im new at this stuffs, so you can send me anything you want...
Its great to have one of these blogs n all...